I'll push myself up through the dirt and shake my petals free
I'm resigned to being born and so resigned to bravery.
~Dar Williams

Monday, October 15, 2012

Amelia love–2 1/2 years

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Amelia is the perfect storm of clever and naughty and adorable – she is living up to every second of toddlerhood, in all of its terrible and terrific glory.

She is one of the most tenderhearted children I know.  Whenever anybody looks or acts sad, she is quick to do her best to comfort.  When Baby Lily was born, I was a bit weepy off and on for the first couple weeks (maybe more… it’s all a fog now).  One day I was crying and she ran over to me.

“Mommy a little bit sad?”

“Yeah, Mommy is a little sad right now.” 

“Ohhhhh… what the matter, Mommy?”

“Oh, nothing really, I’m just a little tired or something.”

“Okay, Mommy.”  She gave me a huge hug, patted my back, and kept repeating, “It’s okay, Mommy.  It’s okay, Mommy.  It’s okay…”  Then she left for a minute and reappeared with her beloved stuffed monkey. “Here, Mommy, have a monkey.  You okay now.”

She does the same thing with her cousins and friends when they’re sad.  She is just beyond sweet.

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Amelia loves, loves, loves Baby Sister. She proudly tells strangers, “That my baby sister!” and asks to hug Lily a hundred times a day.  She shares her toys (“We don’t put toys on Seeyee’s face, Mommy.”) and blankets (“We don’t put blankets on Seeyee’s face, Mommy.”) and movies, “(Look at Tangled Princess, Seeyee!”), but not her food (“Seeyee doesn’t eat blueberries – she’s too little.  Just only breastmilk, Mommy!”).  

Whenever I appear anywhere without the baby, Amelia gets very concerned - “Mommy, you need to go get Seeyee right now!”

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She is also a bit (read: a lot) mischievous.  She has to explore everything, and has learned how to carry her little chair around to act as a stepping stool when needed.  If somebody (I or Tim) tells her to stop, she looks us straight in the eye and says, “Oh, you want me to stop?”  And then proceeds to do whatever she was doing.

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She is put in time out at least once every couple days, and has recently taken to putting herself in timeout when she finds it convenient.  For example, she hates having her diaper changed.  Yesterday she saw me bring a diaper downstairs, so she ran onto the couch and said, “Mommy, you CAN’T change my diaper, I’m in timeout!”  She also puts herself in timeout when she thinks a nap or a hair washing is impending. 

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She suddenly loves all things television and movie related.  Her favorites are Kipper (“Kipper my best friend, Mommy.”), Curious George, Wibbly Pig, Tangled, Toy Story, and Cinderella.  We watch Cinderella every day… sometimes more than once.  The plot is very simple:  “The mean girls ruined Cinderella’s dress because she wants her fairy godmother.”

Lest you’re worried about her brain turning to mush, rest assured that she doesn’t ever really watch shows very carefully.  She multitasks.  She has a basket of her favorite toys in the living room.  They mostly consist of stuffed animals, blankets, a doctor kit, and a couple baby dolls.  She gives the animals and dolls several medical examinations a day, and puts them down for a nap (with one or more blankets) every couple minutes or so.

She also has a colorful abacus (which she pronounces correctly) and we practice counting a lot.  A lot, a lot.  She absolutely refuses to concede that there are any numbers past ten, though.  If we continue to eleven and twelve, she gets very upset.  “Just only one two free four five six seben eight nine ten!!!”

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Needless to say, we can’t imagine life without her.  She is exhausting and expensive and a professional mess maker, but she is also lovely and silly and sweet.  Last night while we were in the car, I said, “I love you sweetheart – you’re my little princess.” 

She said, “My love you, Mommy, ‘cause you my fairy godmother.”

Sunday, October 14, 2012

Lily love–month 3

Three months today – that can’t be right.  But it is.  I’m already grieving the loss of my  newborn.  This child holds her head up: wobbly, but proudly.  She smiles, coos, giggles, and yells at me.  It’s hilarious.  She is almost always happy, but if I wait a couple seconds too long to feed her or pick her up, she becomes a red-hot, angry, screaming force to be reckoned with.  And then turns immediately back into a cooing dove as soon as she gets what she wants.

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This girl LOVES bath time.  She usually takes a bath with me and/or Squiggles.  She loves it when I pour water on her belly with the toy sieve, or when I wash her hair or lather her up.

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I love these legwarmers – genius.  Her legs stay warm while I change her diaper.  Fifty times a day.

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I also love this hat – unfortunately, she refuses to keep it on.  Her arm movements are still jerky and uncoordinated, but she manages to get the hat off every time.

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I think she looks so much like Tim in the next photo, it takes my breath away.

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Her legs kill me – I love squishing and kissing her chubby little cheeks and arms and belly and thighs.  She giggles and coos with delight. 

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Did I mention she’s a happy baby?

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When she’s not sleeping, that is.  She sleeps 15 or 20 hours a day.  Seriously.

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Lily’s tongue was tied when she was born.  It took us a couple months to find somebody who would clip her frenulum for us, but we finally did.  Nursing is MUCH less painful now, and Lily seems to enjoy sticking our her tongue a great deal (it was impossible before).

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This is her blessing dress – I decided it cost too much to wear only once.

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Love her in blue.

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Saturday, October 13, 2012

Lily love–month 2

Lily continued to eat like a champion during her second month.  By the time we got to her 8-week checkup, she weighed 13 pounds and was 23.5 inches tall – over the 90th percentile for both.

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Tim got her to take a binky one night – it didn’t last.  She’s really not a fan, sadly.

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While we were in Utah, Lily developed some colic-like behaviors.  Almost every night – starting at about a month old – she screamed bloody murder for an hour or so… then would drop to sleep suddenly and sleep for five or six hours.  Luckily, the screaming fits only lasted about a month.  I think maybe she didn’t like onions and chocolate – I stopped eating both, and we haven’t had any problems.  She really acted like she was in pain – kind of broke my heart a little every night.

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We sure love this little sweetie. 

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Lily 6.5 weeks

We bought a side-to-side swing.  Lily loves it, and we love it because she will sleep in it for hours – without me having to nurse her to sleep!  Hurray. 

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We love this little Buddha belly:

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And the quizzical looks we frequently get:

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I didn’t notice that Lily’s pants (thanks Lucy) matched the blanket until I place her on it.

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One morning at about 5:00 am, I fed Lily, and groggily placed her next to me on the bed.  I kind of got the feeling somebody was watching me, so I opened my eyes to see my gorgeous girl giving me an ear-to-ear grin.  Her first smile was beautiful, and made me cry, of course.  That’s what I do.

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But I think my favorite thing ever is to watch her sleep.  Like an angel, she dreams away, sighing softly with every breath.

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Friday, October 12, 2012

Sidekick

My NEED to give Seeyee a bottle!

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My NEED to ‘nuggle with Seeyee.

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My NEED to put my nose in Seeyee’s armpit (Seeyee seems to disagree).

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My NEED to share Seeyee’s mat.

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My NEED to have my picture with Seeyee.

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My NEED to give Seeyee a bath.

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My NEED to let Seeyee suck my thumb.

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